Insomnia is hunting me terribly again.





"Are you okay?"

There are some friends who always know you for you, for the times when you're crying beneath the biggest grin in the whole wide world. For the times when you need someone to talk to. For the time when they came in at the right moment telling you the truth. Truth hurts but yet by not revealing it and kept it behind closed door will be the scariest things that can ever happen.

Brave fronts don't always work. But they love you despite all that anyway.

"Are you okay?"

Yes I am. Better already, i suppose :) thanks so much.




p/s : DIET is a MUST!! pls dont tempt me with junk food.pls pls pls. no meat. only vege & fruits are allowed.thx!

It started with a thought, " i have stopped writing for myself" perhaps a pause.

Some thought have kept me awake and unable to sleep.

damn it. why so emo?

night classes aint easy. especially when its fall on the end of weekdays.

different people. different perspective.

Dinner with friends @ bugis.. movie we watched : star trek. NIce right? tho yuenchin n chiasin fall asleep. NOt tat bored after all =D . me n koy cab back home. you can say i'm lazy. but thinking of the journey back hor kinda far. haha. back by 12 midnight.. Im CindeReLLa *clap hands*

Dinner at xing wang

yuen chin + ur blogger

girls : yuenchin - me - chia sin

ur pretty blogger =p

wei kit tryin 2 b ang ,, wit koy

tian boon joined us later .. weikit - koy- tianboon

i would say, our fattening dinner *Slurp*=p

ur pretties blogger again ! HAHA!

at arcade -the players-

me n miss yap

she's pretty right? i agree *flip hair*

my healthy partnerss..drag me to swim + badminton!! thx

yup..us again!!



" ... a little glance, a lovely dreams ..."

Went swimming with chia sin yesterday. oh oh. its good to swim. ya. i feel good!!! coz can slim down. i'll do anything to slim down. no more temp me with those junk food ok, von & kel!! thanks!!

thanks to gfss yest. listening to my frustration.. so nice of you girls..

Monday class seems extra bored and im freaking cold. thx to the air-con, too good to sleep. coursemate fishing in class.HAHA..


oh. what i'm writing?!?!

IF algebra are really that easy

nah, leader not my type.

tea-break time..zzZZZ



"...there is no wrong to love and care someone & there is also no wrong for someone we love to reject us.. what we can do is to respect the one we love and respect ourselves... =)"

randoms

"...never explain yourself to any one.

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,

And the person who dislikes you wont believe it... " =)

Weekend was great. it's good to sweat. Badminton with chia sin and koy. Felt much more better after ending my emo weekdays.

i will become a better me. outwardly i maybe suffering & might having brokenness but inwardly i will be rejoicing. self 'me' must die. its not about me,myself & i anymore. jiayous!!!




felt ur hug.
it was warm enuf to hang on for a moment
and tears a little
holding me tightly
shoudnt hv push u away
*hugs*

journey was much little longer to work today... normally took me 8mins to reach yet Today.. i took like 15mins to reach mrt station.. Mind was not at the right place. Heart was pondering faster den usual due to over-drink of alcohol. Whole body never felt so weak but STILL trying to be strong. in fact, hv been spending my whole day busying with work yet my heart never beat normally. Guess, im having a terrible hang over..
Lesson to learn: not to drink on weekdays =)

Kinda blurred when the tears of my eyes hanging there not rolling down.. no..im trying to control it.Sometimes, you try so hard to see clearly when only you're blurred with surrounding.. When one can see clearly yet not appreaciating it.. Until you lost it without knowing yourself losing it is the worse case..

She cried. For no reason. For maybe a stupid reason. Let go would be her definitely answer =)

I'm not the good old tabby you used to think i was. . Thinking innocently. caring innocently. Touching ppl hearts easily... guess,I changed kinda tremendously among some of my friends. oh.one thing that im not changing. always too soft hearted and easily believe what people said. damn. im kinda addicted to club nowadays. hmmm. no good tabby. i used to be so strong. i can live without a relying on someone. but now i dont, i cant, im too coward to be on my own. Dont even know which is the real tabby. Dont ask me. Don't know would be my answer. Or maybe, i'm running away. I don't know. LOST. i'm in a mess.

Have to stop. Gonna stop. Must stop writing now. Its not right.

As i said,not wanting to reget for not writing it out yet afraid of the consequences.. so,i wrote =)

Longing for a movie.




tabby is tired.
tabby is exhausted.
tabby full stop her life at the moment.

Labels: emo

She wept

-hanging on-

Labels: emotional

yup.. went zirka again.. suppose to finish up the bottle we left over few weeks ago..end up....we ordered another bottle & there's left over again IF IF IF im not wrong..
Drinking & CAm-ing with friends..
ppl that joined : chiasin, ang, koy, weikit & tian boon =)


two girls of the night

her first time

drink drank drunk

Friends Forever !! thx ppL!

makan makan at tiong bahru..

steamboat before on fire

the restaurant

me n chia sin

the guys

weikit - koy - tian boon

our herbal soup

pork

chicken

beef

Foodss - Sedap-
us againn

dessert @ kopitiam

ya..she busy.. aku pun

testin his camera =D

Rested for 1and a half days and finally im back to work. Awaiting for my report. Everything's gonna be fine right ?? =)

cant wait for gathering later .simple dinner will do!!

Thanks God for today. I'm still breathing healthily, talking normally and doing my daily routine as usual... You're right. i have a choice. is up to me whether i wanna make it happen ornot. Or, if i dare ornot.. its challenging yet need to be think twice. perhaps more.. pray for wisdom. Coz not gonna make a decision by regretting it again after that. Pray for understanding. Coz not gonna hurt those people around me that might be effected by my decision & hope they understand. Conclusion, no decison to be me yet but.. might be in future.


Heard that, you n gf not that good.. gonna break up soon.. by right, i should feel a little bit happy. But, i'm not. maybe, after all, i'm not that evil heh..feeling happy when you gonna break up soon .. hmmmm.. hope you're stay as happy as ever.

Lyrics | Natalie Grant lyrics - Held lyrics

went for xray today at mount eli. should be fine, i guess.. now needa wait clinic to call me up. hosp will send the report to clinic. ya.. everything's gonna be all right. thanks for those who r concern. *hugs*

NO work for me tomorrow. but doin assign n some reading. Bought text book. darn heavy.. Class was fine. lec got more jokes den elaborating our studiess..

Overdue pictures.. two weeks ago i attended my cousin wedding .. ya.. at jb restaurant grand straits garden.. nice ambiance. lovely couple. congrats.

Peopless

Foodss and the Ambiance

me n dodo zi lian pic

Bloody Cough ..ya.. i cough out blood
*sobs*

been coughing so badly the pass few days. especially in mrt. people took out tissue and looking at me one kind.. oh,mayb a few kind i guess, as if i kena H1N1. ya, that was kinda weird. still, dunno why i only cough tat badly when im in mrt. as if my lungs are coming out from my mouth. *grossy*

Thankss zz for picking me up from school. and back kulai home on early sat.1hr by his bike and im home .tat was fast. he flied there i guess,NOPE, i felt. Somehow,i thought i was going to die or what, ya..reach home safetly.den he went back sg again. So nice of you. thanks.

Lim teh wit frenz on sat nite. jus an hours sahaje. trying out takumi new phone W705. pictures updated, kinda dark tho : -

Siaw fen and yuen chin

part of the guyss.. koy,takumi,level6

me n yuen chin.. suppose to have sf.. opss

ur lovely blogger

part of the girls.. siawfen,yuenchin, taby, dogdog

have a lovely short meal with yeong - ahsan - william - soonfoor.. oh.. it was fun and i laughed all the way the moment i met them. Hope to meet you guys soon o!! too bad dodo din get to join. we miss u too!!
drama-ing before n after i met them

dinner at Japanese restaurant & cafe

Food and Us

love the ambience - Food so so

soon foor suddenly came it.. lolz

HAHAHA..

Group pic.. where's my besty yeong ???

we left



class tonight. hope i wont fall asleep. so tired due to my cough... get well soon Tabby!!

Love,
is a deep affection of adoration.

Loving,
is to give all the passion to the love.

To be loved,
is a happiness unexpected.

To love you,
is a gift unspeakable.

Guess, im the most SILLY girl in the world.


cant wait for dinner with besty yeong n ah-san.. haha..he's my besty too.coz i noe him 100% =p

sick.
sore throat - cough - slight flu.

two assign two finish up. ah. don't know where and how to start. but well, i'm doing some research ady.

kinda sad cuz cant go tw. argh,, maybe i should have start my study on the aug intake. lolz.

heard about godpa sickness. Pray hard that he'll be strong.jiayous.

Yest something quite special happen. Due to end of the middle month, i'm kinda poor cuz 15th only got paid & i don't wanna use my saving.. anyway, somehow, suddenly i was thinking, how i wish my pants got some $ i left.. den i wore my pants yest and on the way to work, i just touch touch my pocket to take out my ezlink, den pop, eh, got $$ ler.. tho not that much but can last me like 1week ? hmmm~ well, God really provide all my needs when i asked , Ask and it shall be given =) Amen !!

Yes, Last weekend my gf the tallest among us, see mun turned 22th!! congrats!! went cabana. to celebrate. another long night for me ~ we did enjoy o!!

perfect shot fr da camera girl *aherm*
ying sin & see mun
see mun & me
yuen chin & see mun



he called. sounded as he care. seems disappointed. kinda drunk. text him with some hurtful words. but what i wrote was all truth.. Truth hurts but its the fact. thts all im gonna say.

Lunch with kel and von last week. It's kell bday..ya.. Miss sushi wit ade-ling..coz this time we really ordered quite little.. IF ade around, she will order and make us eat until wanna BAO.. aww..ade.. we miss u.. hope to see u real soon and all the best at poly k??!!

Tempting huh!?!?! i LOVE sushi!!

ade-ling + tabby

p/s : found tis beautiful poem . it was lovely =)

Went clubbing yest.. Gosh. im exhausted but am crazy once a while.. dance the whole night.. didint sleep at all cuz by the time i reach home was like.. 7am.. lolz..gonna get ready to work~~

It's was really fun.Thanks yeong for making the effort to join us for the first time tho didint drink much and just sit there and look around.. i used to be like tat too~ lol!!

Thanks yeong,yingsin,yuenchin,tianboon,weikit,koy + tb fren..ya.. it was great gathering tho hor.. we kena poke by other ppl!! =XX

2bottle of Chivas and 4/5 jug mixer. aint cheap but got free champagne & free entry. thx to tb!!

Shall not write much..Behold the Pic.. took almost like 100++ pic.. opss~

Reach there around 11 pm

Friends of All Life!!
lovely~
taken in washroom!!
outside the club~
4.30am.. - mcdonalds 4 breakfast.


P/s : my body is HOT. whole body aching. i needa rest.

Labels: clubbing

Latest pic of my baby nephew.. 3mths plus ady..so fast heh.. awww.. chubby chubby boy!! muacks!!

Labels: updates

went to Malacca, A-famosa on labour day. stay 1 night. it was really fun. although its hot but overall, i enjoyed it. guess no matter how many time i went there i wont be bored of melaka. it's the ppl that making it so much fun !! *hugs* enjoy the picturess...

@ melaka .. lunch at pahlawan

Shopping at Dataran

2hrs journey from melaka town to a-famosa..due to the holidays..its jam everywhere.. everyone is exhausted

the kids & the cleaner & the emo guy.. nah..swimming pool was green.. yuck

dinner & gathering

A-famosa Cowboy town.. we play till it closed

Bungee jump by isaiah & aunt tina.. woosh!!

2nd day.. @ afamosa water world.. entrance fees aint cheap..

last day.. bought nyonya kueh..super niceyy.. Misc picss..

thx bestie childhood who keep acc me take pic using his W910..& never complain anytime when i wanna take pic.. lolz..thanks for the pei he!! im loving his phone so muchie!!

Last but not least is miss my zi lian.. lolzz.. upload in a small size la..


ur lovely blogger =))))


thanks God for the wonderful trip..where we safety reach and back home..Tho we met some prob but it didn't stop us from going !!

Labels: holiday vacation

Dinner at Holland V with the guys for Wei Kit 22nd birthday on yest.. kinda fun tho but im exhausted due to Melaka trip. will update about my trip later on~~ anyway.. let the picture tell u the story.. Indian restaurant for dinner & dessert at Essential Brew ..


the appetizer









chicken butter
lamb curry
prawn masala
prata

me + sze zhien

unglam them..hahaha

me + lawboon *my eyes cant open anymore*
group pic



dessert @ essential brew
homemade strawberry cheesecake
birthday boy
his hazel nut choc
lawboon jasmine drinks
my fruit punch


lolz..

conclusion, a great gatherin tho its simple =)))

Labels: dinner, updates